Such a Bitter Sweet Day

[Glammanana]

Today is my youngest son's birthday he is 38 today my Benn he is my boy who moved to Leek in Staffordshire 5/6mths ago,I am always the one to buy the birthday cards from Angie and the children as she is in work all day and we have similar taste so she leaves it to me to buy cards from her and from his nephews & niece.
I wrote them out and came to mine (ours) and the tears started again it is the first time I was sending a card from just me so obviously I put his dads name on it.
I have to get used to just putting my name to things like this but still feel that my John is still here and sending his love and watching over the three of them and their children.
This past week has been very tearful as the realisation that I am on my own and have to deal with everything myself friends are so kind and supportive. xxx glamma xx

[Plantaholic]

I can sympathise with you Glamm, having lost my OH nearly 7 years ago, I can remember the early days were hard but J is still with you in your heart. Your OH was taken from you so suddenly you are bound to still be weepy, loosing ones OH leaves a void which is difficult to fill and of course you are a lot younger than I am. Sending hugs

[Nanto2girls]

Glamma, i would imagine all the firsts are hard. Things such as birthday,anniversaries and other occasions. X

[Lizzie48]

Glamma, it is do difficult, you will find yourself saying " a year ago we did this" or " we went there", etc etc, just take every day as it goes and the tears are allowed! Hugs.

[Oma]

Glamm for the first two years my MIL put FIL's name on all the cards , eventually once she got over the awful void and grief she started to just put her name on .

Your John will still be sending his love so why not include him , I know it makes you sad but I bet your DS loves that Dad's name is on his cards .

Its early days for you im sure there will be many more tears lovely lady , xxxxx

[Gemini]

Oh yes, that must be so hard Glamma
Others who have been there, like Plant, Aggie and Lizzie will understand.

Sending (((HUGS)))

[Nana]

Sending love Glam. I'm sorry for your sadness.❤

[Daisy]

Glamm - I can't add to what others have said, except that I agree. I'm sure Benn is feeling the loss of his dad on his first birthday without him, but I'm sure John is with him in his heart. Sending you hugs. xxxx

[WeeGranny]

Sending love Glamm! x

[Enfys]

Difficult times for you Glam, sending love 🌺

[Grauntie Mag]

Sending big hugs Glam. x

[Glammanana]

Those ((hugs)) mean so much even though they are virtual xx

[Daisy]

Glamm - you've got through one of those sad 'firsts', your youngest son's birthday. You're doing very well, even if it doesn't always feel like that. Sending lots more hugs, dear. xxxx