What would you write to your mother?

[Elisi]

Yes, I have now read them all. Very poignant.

[Skye]

"Shame you had to play mind games with a little girl who worshipped you..."

[Elisi]

To mother 1) (Natural) I understand and forgive why you had to give me away. You thought I'd have a better life and in many ways you were right. You, yourself, were left with no choices. There was no social security, free housing, handouts of any kind for single mothers as we have today. You had little education, left school at 14, and relied on the husband who had left you to sign up in the Forces as a SINGLE man (making sure you got none of his army pay sent to you). You worked yourself to pieces cleaning houses, serving behind pub bars, to look after the two daughters you already had by this selfish, underhanded male.

You fell in love with a Canadian Air Force pilot and I was the result. He went home, husband returned, and demanded your one year old baby left the house or he would leave again. Not much in the way of choices those days!

You lit a candle for me every birthday and you tried to stop the adoption but it was too late. You were left with one photo of me which you treasured and was found in your handbag when you died at 81. I wish I had found you sooner, I was 3 years too late. If there is one regret in my life it was that I was not at your bedside when you were dying.

Mother no 2 is more complicated and shall have to think further!

[Nanto2girls]

Brought a lump to my throat Elisi.Did you ever meet your Canadian Dad? Please don't feel as though you have to answer.

[Elisi]

No Nan I didn't after many searches as Forces Personnel records are locked due to the many illegitimate children they left behind. I do know his name was Jolly, Jolley or some spelling of such and his first name was William. It's a shame as I have obviously half brothers and sisters in Canada whom I would loved to have met if they had been willing. But it was not to be.

[Daisy]

Elisi - that's so poignant. Your birth mother was totally trapped by the era and she must have thought about you every single day of her life. You have an amazing level of acceptance and understanding and it would have been wonderful for your mum to know that you understood that she gave you up out of love.

[Gemini]

Very moving Elisi xxxxx

[Elisi]

Elisi - that's so poignant. Your birth mother was totally trapped by the era and she must have thought about you every single day of her life. You have an amazing level of acceptance and understanding and it would have been wonderful for your mum to know that you understood that she gave you up out of love.

Ah, well, Daisy, I believe she DOES know that I understand, in some indefinable way, within concepts the human mind cannot conceive, she is aware and still with me X